I constanly

find myself living in old memories I'll never experience again.

I always lose myself in thoughts which have no end, but there really is no infinite.

When I start to disclose information about the matter which occupies my mind I start at the end.

& when I want to smile & be happy I look for denial & a river full of tears.

but when I want to cry & press down on my insides...I run & hide from the understanding eye.

& now I will

attempt to philosophize with a

...HAMMER.

The walls have ears so I wrap myself in silence.

Even in a crowd I'd feel alone...my greatest friend has always been solitude.

When I chew I hope I choke.

closer & closer to isolation i tread.

Please, DO NOT EAT.

surfin' along the mad waves

i stumbled upon the find of the century.....

sike.

I just lost what I thought was found.

"Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within."

-Sigmund Freud

WHER

EIS

MUI

MEYEND??

It's

a surprise you haven't caught on yet.

it's nothing personal you're an...

embarrassment.

don't cut me out.

Eye

have never worn a smile for this long.

Although it's new to me, I thoroughly enjoy it.

Some times I do wish there were Infinites.

I've had the best winter break in my entire life!

Chronic of Fresnarnia, Radddmouth (new song) in other cities, mountains & mountains of white lines, ultimate shredding/sledding, penetrating sin city, gambling, wonderful flowers, HPYHOURS, all my great friends.

Great hustle guys!

School starts in 2 weeks. I gotta purchase all those scholarly necessities & get to bizness.

save cash for my tuition, coachella, a dizzzzknee pass & to fix my freakin bike.

I might take a break from dating mary janet...we're not seeing things eye to eye lately.

I've been living w/out Rambo now for an entire year.

I can't believe that it's already been a year since my buddy moved on & freed his spirit.

I'll be a veg. for a year this Wednesday & I couldn't think of a better way to celebrate than attending One World's monthly buffet.

I need to go eat at My Vegan also.

okay, well I feel like I'm rambling now...so peace.

Inspiration

is EMPTY, still, cold, life-LESS, dark, isolated, apathetic, & chemically instable.

please do NOT attempt to utilize your brain.

continue living in shame, never allowing yourself to think critically or any further than a surface level.

Today ruled. Snow/Ice.

getting kicked out of an open field.

driving around for hours. finding mad hills & slopes to bomb.

snow fights, 2UB/TR3 sled rides, crazy spills//frozen ass, dome-home, pubic fries & whitesaus.

all day Mary J. session. car naps.

TASTY

GOODY.

What

is all the commotion about?

I'm all alone on an island of misery. To flee would mean...?