2009 April 28.

It would appear as though I have been neglecting you once more. Reason being is that I've allocated my time in a more efficient manner. One in which my main focus is School.

Yet I've come across another little blip in the road.
It's not really helping.

Could it be that this is a sign from a higher being or am I just feeding the fire with invisible gas?

I think it's time for a tour.
Either decision would only read me to the inevitable conclusion.
CHOOSE THE PATH WHICH HOLDS MOST FUN.

Obsession:

ob⋅ses⋅sion   [uhb-sesh-uhn]
–noun
1. the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc.
2. the idea, image, desire, feeling, etc., itself.
3. the state of being obsessed.
4. the act of obsessing.


my thoughts are always dominated by idea/images/desires.
bombarded each & everyday with depictions of how man should act or be like.
fit me into that nice pair of tan khakis.
cut my hair. trim my beard. polished old car shines bright in the sun.

but i'm no car.
in fact i hate concrete. i don't like sidewalks.






I WANT TO HAVE SEX IN THE WILDERNESS.
sober.
and drunk.

so stoked.

I am the most impatient of them all.
I am the one who beats myself up & grounds myself.

I am my own worst enemy & what makes it even worse
is
that
I
FUCKING
know
it.

wahhhhhhhhhhhhh

welllllllllllly welllllllllllll it's been a really long time since I've updated, as if you were incapable of reading the date, and it's largely due to my procrastination and the fact that the internet service got interrupted followed by a disconnection, BUT FEAR NOTTTTTTTTTTT YOUNG READERS for my loving mother aware that I also use the net for school business offered to re-connect.

So let's begin, school isn't going all that well. It seems as though there is a lot more to marketing & finance that i'm not catching & there sure as hell as is a ton of stuff i'm not understanding correctly in my int. econ class. Other than the 3 aforementioned classes I seem to be doing well. Nothing spectacular. Spring semester is nearing the end and I couldn't be much happier for the summer posses plenty trees bearing fruits for my hard labor.

Oh and how sweet the preview isssssssssssssssss!
I just want to share this wonderful taste with everyone, but my voice has been stolen and i'm restrained by the overwhelming powers of the monarch's shadow.







FUCKING NASHINGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Radmouth